Love Unspoken Chapter 18

18. Leave out all the rest

Jinx floated helplessly in the void, her magic totally spent.  The momntum from her last movement set her spinning.

-I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared-

She could see the rift...the way out.  But she couldn't reach it.  She had no energy left.

-But no one would listen
'Cause no one else cared-

Even if she could have reached it...what would be the point?  She would go back through...and face his body again.  She couldn't bing herself to do it.

-After my dreaming
I woke with this fear-

They were dead...all of them.  Good friends who had forgiven her her past mistakes, welcomed her into their family...they were gone.  Even if there were other Titans...without Robin and the others, thee would be no cohesion.  The Teen itans wee finished.

-What am I leaving
When I'm done here?-

She had no home.  No family.  No real friends.  And Cyborg...

-So if you're asking me
I want you to know-

He was dead.  She loved him...and lost him.  WHY?

-When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed-

Why did she wait so long to confront her feelings for him?  If...if she'd done it sooner...if she'd given hem a chance...maybe she would have been there, and helped to preven all of this.  Maybe...

-And don't resent me
And leave me feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest-

What was the point of wondering?  She had lost him, and nothing could change that.

-Don't be afraid
I've aking my beating
I've shed but I'm me-

Lost to her grief, she looked back over her life...and found nothing but regrets.

-I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through-

She regretted having been a criminal.  Holding the Stone betrayel against Cyborg.  Leading her friends in the Hive Five to join the Brotherhood after abandoning them.  Turning on them to freeze them in that last battle.  Getting together with Wally.  ...not seeing what could have been between her and Cyborg.

-I've never been perfect
But neither have you-

Why did she live her life this way?  Why did she make so many mistakes?  Why did she always mak the wrong choice?

-So if you're asking me
I want you to know-

Maybe her powers really were her curse.  She was bad luck.

-When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed-

And she brought it upon the people whocared about her...the people she cared about most.

-And don't resent me
And leave me feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest-

No matter what side they were on, hero or villain, they met a horrible fate because she had come to care about them.  It was all her fault.

-Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well-

She deseved this fate.  o be alone in the void...forever.

-Pretending someone else can come
And save me fom myself
I can' be who you are-

She watched he void, and saw in it a eflection of the emptiness inside her heart...the void she had tried o fill all her life...first with wealth, then power, then love...and yet the void remained.

-When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed-

She couldn't escape her fate.  And now...she didn't want to.

-And don't resent me
And leave me feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest-

There was nothing worth escaping to.

-Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well-

With a final sigh, she cried out to the void.  "Cyborg, my love...I'm sorry..."

-Pretending someone else can come
And save me from myself-

With that she closed her eyes and let he ears fall.

-I can't be who you are-

And got lost in memoies of what was...and dreams of what might have been...hiding from the pain of what was.

-I can't be who you are-